The Pause Before the Pivot

I’m in the season where school finally feels like something I can do and actually complete.

Not rushed. Not forced. Just real.

And at the same time, I’m thinking about money because of course I am. Bills don’t pause just because you’re trying to evolve.

I’ve been looking into a bartending class, something I’ve been interested in for a while. The classes start soon, and I was talking it through with a friend. In the middle of the conversation, they challenged me not harshly, but honestly.

Basically: Is this something you’re going to start and not finish?

It humbled me.

It wasn’t said to doubt me. It was said to make me think. And it worked.

I had to sit with the question: Is this something I’ll really stick to, or is this my ADHD brain chasing another idea? On the flip side, bartending does feel like a practical side hustle flexible, useful, and potentially helpful with school costs and debt.

So now I’m here in this pause.

I’m trying to be smarter about my decisions. Not piling things on just because I can. Not burning myself out trying to do everything at once. I want to move forward without regret, without resentment, and without exhausting myself in the process.

This isn’t me quitting before I start.

This is me finally asking myself why before I say yes.

Anyways…..

Thanks for listening to my TED Talk.

CB 🦋